| Bring me back a dog... |
[May. 16th, 2006|01:58 am] |
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| | The Next Life | ] |
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| | The Alternative - IAMX | ] |
it's 2:02 in the morning!
DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS????
6 DAYS!!!!
6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS
6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS
6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS6DAYS
:D
yaaaaay
I've been counting down since it was 53, and even then I was like "Oh it's not too long now :\"
AND NOW BAM
6 days :D
hmmm I wonder who I'm going to see first. And what I'll do first. And what I'll...cactus?
Iiiii waaaaannnnnttttt the IAMX albummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
so that I can run around saying...
...I'll be the next president.
and tell everyone...
...to bring me back a dog...
...in the next life.
*ahem*
6 DAYS
I should find out who wants to hook up when I get there...so of course I'll post a myspace bulletin
HURRAH |
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| AND AGAIN |
[Apr. 25th, 2006|11:18 pm] |
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| | there | ] |
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| |  blah | ] |
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| | We Used To Be Friends - The Dandy Warhols | ] |
twice in one night
pow I'm a rebel
I think I'm going to laugh at myself when I'm done...
mm
I haven't been out for several days now
I mean briefly, to see my dad at the airport, to see my granddad, you know 2 hour trips that basically consist of a car ride, my iPod, wandering around following my mom and coming back.
mm
I don't miss going to a normal school
I hated school
I hated it so much it made me sick to ever think of what I was doing there
what they were making me learn
and HOW they were making me learn it
school systems...
all teenagers say they hate school
but I think that all school systems, PERTICULARLY American ones are an abomination to the word knowledge.
((oh look at clara and her big words))
but yeah
I'm not saying I miss school
I just miss knowing people.
I miss having acquaintences.
I could hardly call any of them 'friends'
maybe 3 out of the 2 schools I went to
But I miss knowing...that people knew me.
I feel like nobody knows who I am
but what makes me feel worse is I'm doing it on purpose...only not...
I'm purposely avoiding people from my old schools
because I don't like them
more like...I just don't care about them
and yet I want them to care about me?
how selfish
and how utterly stupid
the only reason I keep in touch with some of them is because they have myspace//msn
my
life
should
not
be
on
myspace
and it isn't
but I'm scared it's going to
and no matter what people say
or what they think of me for saying this
I know
for a fact
that if I DID NOT live in LA
and lived practicallly anywhere else *cough*london*cough*
then I wouldn't feel this way.
I wouldn't feel like...I've disappeared.
I wouldn't feel so hostile towards everyone around me
why?
I don't know.
what makes london any different?
are the people THERE any better than the people HERE?
((well obviously some))
I suppose I could look at it as...I have...real friends there.
people who I actually CARE about, and who I reckon care about me at least a little.
I hate feeling...as if no one remembers me...
In my defence of sounding like an idiot I could say I have more family there.
hmm
in fact both my parents and I pretty much hate all our relatives that live in America except for my Granddad.
I mean if you think...I've got a boyfriend, 2 brothers, a godfather, Uncles//aunts//cousins there that I actually get along with, and other friends...
WHYAMINOTTHERE??!!??!?!
and now..being so far away...it's like I'm secluding myself even more.
Like I'm avoiding all my acquaintences here
and I'm not with anyone there
Maybe this all sprouted from the fact that my dad is staying with his dad...who he hasn't seen, or even heard from for 10 years, and someone that I've never met.
I feel like...I'm missing out on another person in my life.
....I know I sound so stupid, and full of it, and I probably need to get over myself a bit. |
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| hmph... |
[Apr. 25th, 2006|10:27 pm] |
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| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Last High - The Dandy Warhols | ] |
Just got back from the airport a little while ago to see my dad off.
On the way there I think I asked to go with him at least 4 times >_>
But, 28 days is not long now.
Seeing as it's 10:30 it's almost 27 days now :D
I was looking through a list of phobias...and realized how many of them I have...
or no, not really have, seeing as I don't fear all of them...
but it made me think that all the things I don't like...well the dislike of them has a name
it also made me think that there are so many phobias, for such bizarre things that SOMEWHERE, SOMEONE would have had to have this dire FEAR of something, so strong that someone had to give it a name...which is pretty funny to me
such as...
Alliumphobia- Fear of garlic.
Ambulophobia- Fear of walking.
Androphobia- Fear of men.
Anglophobia- Fear of England or English culture, etc.
Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth. I thought that surely this was a joke
Aulophobia- Fear of flutes.
Bibliophobia- Fear of books.
Blennophobia- Fear of slime.
Bogyphobia- Fear of bogeys or the bogeyman.
Caligynephobia- Fear of beautiful women.
Cathisophobia- Fear of sitting.
Deipnophobia- Fear of dining or dinner conversations.
Dextrophobia- Fear of objects at the right side of the body. ...what???
Dutchphobia- Fear of the Dutch.
Eleutherophobia- Fear of freedom
Ereuthrophobia- Fear of blushing. how is that a phobia? sure, blushing can be embarrassing/unpleasant but does anyone FEAR it?
Eurotophobia- Fear of female genitalia.
Francophobia- Fear of France or French culture
Geliophobia- Fear of laughter.
Geniophobia- Fear of chins.
Genuphobia- Fear of knees.
Germanophobia- Fear of Germany or German culture.
Gynephobia or Gynophobia- Fear of women
Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia- Fear of long words. oh the irony...
all the ones for 'I' were pretty common...
Japanophobia- Fear of Japanese.
Judeophobia- Fear of Jews.
Koniophobia- Fear of dust.
Lachanophobia- Fear of vegetables.
Lutraphobia- Fear of otters.
Medomalacuphobia- Fear of losing an erection. heh...
Medorthophobia- Fear of an erect penis.
Melophobia- Fear or hatred of music. O_O
Novercaphobia- Fear of your step-mother.
Octophobia - Fear of the figure 8.
Oneirogmophobia- Fear of wet dreams. ....*no comment*
Parthenophobia- Fear of virgins or young girls. yeah those are frightening...
Peladophobia- Fear of bald people.
Phalacrophobia- Fear of becoming bald.
Phobophobia- Fear of phobias. again...irony?
Russophobia- Fear of Russians.
Scriptophobia- Fear of writing in public.
Sinistrophobia- Fear of things to the left or left-handed. double-you tee eff
Sinophobia- Fear of Chinese, Chinese culture.
Triskaidekaphobia- Fear of the number 13.
Vestiphobia- Fear of clothing ::nudistcamp::
Xanthophobia- Fear of the color yellow or the word yellow.
Zemmiphobia- Fear of the great mole rat. AAAAAGGGGHHHHH MOLE RAT
yeah..see...someone must have been strucken with FEAR when they saw a great mole rat, or the figure 8.
and that confuses me
http://phobialist.com
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[Apr. 17th, 2006|04:14 am] |
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| | Blue - The Birthday Massacre | ] |
I habven;t slept in 2 days ;D
wpoooo Im trubng to toepe nicely.
I tink i I trideed harder I coul stype noarmal.
xcacrisCACTUS
how si this fro a first post yee? |
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